Meh, Might as Well

So I stumble... a lot.  And once in a while I come across a site with quotes on them.  Usually I just think "meh, those are cool" or "I like what that's saying" and never think anything more of it...  Well, not so much today.  I was feeling "bloggy" but didn't have much to say, so much like a good friend of mine, I decided to just post pictures.  So here you go :)

"But she'll bring out the best And the worst you can be"

She can kill with a smile
She can wound with her eyes
She can ruin your faith with her casual lies
And she only reveals what she wants you to see
She hides like a child,
But she's always a woman to me

She can lead you to love
She can take you or leave you
She can ask for the truth
But she'll never believe you
And she'll take what you give her, as long as it's free
Yeah, she steals like a thief
But she's always a woman to me

CHORUS:
Oh--she takes care of herself
She can wait if she wants
She's ahead of her time
Oh--and she never gives out
And she never gives in
She just changes her mind

And she'll promise you more
Than the Garden of Eden
Then she'll carelessly cut you
And laugh while you're bleedin'
But she'll bring out the best
And the worst you can be
Blame it all on yourself
Cause she's always a woman to me
--Mhmm--

Bridge

CHORUS:
Oh--she takes care of herself
She can wait if she wants
She's ahead of her time
Oh--and she never gives out
And she never gives in
She just changes her mind

She is frequently kind
And she's suddenly cruel
She can do as she pleases
She's nobody's fool
And she can't be convicted
She's earned her degree
And the most she will do
Is throw shadows at you
But she's always a woman to me
--Mhmm--



I have no idea why, but this song always makes me smile :)

It's amazing what a little laughter can do...

Sorry for the absence from blogging... ok thats a lie, I can't apologize for not blogging.  I just didn't have anything blog worthy to talk about, and honestly, it's a little self righteous to think that anyone really missed reading about  my thoughts on mundane things.  I digress...

Back to my main point.  It's amazing what some laughter can do.  It can help to start to heal old wounds and help remind you what's really important.  I've been somewhat of an "anti-Ethan" of late.  Letting little things bring me down.  I've stopped being myself.  I've stopped making jokes, and I've been uptight.

This last night I watched the entire fifth season of "How I Met Your Mother" with Teaira.  It's been a long long time since I've laughed that hard.  I felt like the old Ethan.  The care free and fun Ethan.  I don't know how to explain it, but I feel fixed.  I feel refreshed and renewed.  I feel like I always should...

Anyway, here's to keeping this up.

It's the Small Things (Part Deux)

Isn't it funny? The way the smallest things or events have the largest impact on our lives.  Seemingly mundane things can be the most meaningful and formative events.  Be it sushi and some tiramisu, or a late night watching movies and talking.  It's REALLY the small things that remind you of how lucky you are, how appreciated you are, and just how happy one person can make you.

Holy Melismas Batman!!!

Well I have all of my rep for next semester... Plunking through them is intense.  I have three Handel pieces (BTW I Freaking LOVE Handel) and they are melisma heavy to say the least.  The first is Si spetata, il tuo Rigore from Giulio Cesare and it looks to be a blast.  Lots of fun diatonic melismas.  The other two are from the Messiah and are Thus Saith the Lord, and But Who May Abide.  Very challenging pieces with more chromatic melismas.  I'm just so excited to learn these and knock them out of the park next year! I can't wait!

Eureka!

I think I might have figured it out... I need to just prove to myself that I am a better person than I have been... Make the changes in myself that I need too... thats really the only way I can forgive myself.  And honestly,  I think I'll be better for all the mistakes I have made...

I'm My Own Worst Enemy...

I've screwed up big time, and even though I've been forgiven, I wake up every morning and flog myself emotionally... "How could I have been so unlike myself? How could I have been so inconsiderate? How could I have been so antagonistic?  How could I have been so selfish?"  Every time I think about it, I feel sick... I feel like the worst person on the face of the planet... It makes me want to cry every time I think about it... I need to find a way to forgive myself, but again its the morning... I feel like throwing up and crying again... I can't believe myself.. how could've I let myself become this monster?  I've changed  for the better because of it but it terrifies me that I might have caused too much damage... Blah! again with the sick and weepy feelings... :( How do I fix me?